hi sarah, this is probably wayyy to late now, sorry, but I did try to send this email a while back but it wouldn't send. My name's Heather by the way (20 years old).
unfortunalty I know of the feeling of shyness only too well. Just like you I am very shy. I can come out of my shell sometimes, other times I am mess. But hey, it must be difficult for you, if you like this guy, play it cool, calm and collected. Take each day as it comes. Each day try and make a small goal for yourself to lead up to eventually talking to him face to face. One day you could write what your goals are going to be, secondly try just casually smiling at him. People say all the time, 'go up and say hi' as if the conversation will then flow naturally after, it doesn't, you're right. If you want to get to know him more, I can understand you wanting to email him for a while and not see him face to face, but he hasn't got msn, so you could still email him, he must have an email address? How about writing a letter to him, or a note, stating your email address clearly. If he likes you too, he will reply.
I know it's easier said than done, but try not to worry about 'being' nervous. Try to think 'this shyness is a curtain, that I am behind at the moment, but can easily have access to drawing them open'. I do understand though how hard and distressing it is, the constant frustration of seeing others running a head all the time. Everyone has their own fears and uncertaintys to face in life. Some get harder ones, easier ones, sad ones, frustrating ones, etc.
There is a site that may help with underfying shyness and assocaited problems. This is www.anxiety.com
. It covers severe shyness, to generalized anxiety disorders. I use it quite a lot too. I am another human soul out there in the world, who is suffering from anxiety. Keep your head above the waters though, swim a few yards, to a few miles a day, depending on how you feel in yourself. Each step is a step closer to happiness and shy free days. Thinking of you Sarah, keep in touch. Opening up to your problem, you are half way there already! People here at this site care for you. It is a shame, as quite a few shy people get left out as the confident ones stroll on by. I think personally, society sucks with that. We have as much to give as any one else does. Keep strong. Be brave. Smile and think 'calm'. Have a positive affirmation, (a line or sentance that means a lot to you, or a quote or motto). Keep it with you always. It could be something like, 'I may feel shy.. but to hell if life will pass me by'. You'll be alright pet, take care, all the best, and I understand, I have been there and still there, but we must all fight together. I am another hand waving in the winds with you, and soon, hopefully, us shy people shall be seen. Love heather xxx