I am having a problem dealing with a friend and am having difficulty determining whether there is an actual problem or if it is all inside my head. I would consider this individual a good friend, however i tend to exhibit the borderline personality disorder trait of over-idealizing individuals. He has alot of friends and already has a best friend, and sometimes I feel like I'm just there. Sometimes he jokes around by pretending to be angry when in fact he is not really, but because i tend to take things seriously I regard this as being angry, and I dont' think I react in the manner that he expects me to which tends to make him more angry, I think. Maybe this is all in my head, but is confronting him about it the best thing to do? I suppose if he is really my friend he will understand my concerns, or maybe he'lljust get annoyed ant hink I'm whiny.
How can I be a better friend in general? Sometimes I just don't have the energy to do anything, I just want other people to do the friend-business if you know what I mean, maybe that's the problem, but if so how can I remedy it?